G. 那些年错过的大雨, 那些年错过的爱情.

2011-12-18T07:16:00.004+08:00

& again, the sun is up and I am still awake.. Gazillionth time I'm saying this, but yes, screwed up body clock AGAIN :/ Meh. Okay I should really make a conscious effort to change it back to normal starting this coming week. Try. Running Man has been making it really tough though. Seriously, BEST variety show ever. I hope it goes on and on and on and never stop. Just recently started on it and finished episode 16 about half hour ago. Thought I should blog a lil' before going to bed seeing how I'm neglecting this space again. Not even sure if there's anyone still reading but for the sake of having this blog to look back upon, I will blog :DD

Holidays mean endless drama/variety showing.. That is really pretty much what I've been up to. Spending time with Wang, karaoke sessions with E, sim cheer, cheer with Lynn, meet-ups with Jme, Adel, etc. Anyhow, the most exciting new thing (for me at least) is the arrival of BABY JUSTIN!!

OMG. SUCH A CUTIE!! Say hello to my lil' nephew ^^ In my opinion, he looks very much like my brother. Seriously adorable much asdfghjklasdfghjkl :3

If you haven't already caught this show, please do. (Y)(Y) Two thumbs up, nuff' said.

So.. the biggest thing happening on our sunny island now must be the SMRT train disruptions. I'm thankful that I've not been caught in any of the breakdowns nor stranded anywhere, cause I've been pretty much sleeping in the day and watching shows at night at home all the time. I see angry comments everywhere; twitter, facebook, stomp, news, etc :/ Somehow, I think the uproar is really not needed. True that SMRT could have managed better, but seriously.. after so many years of serving us, you really expect the rails to not go through wear and tear? What I'm saying is, in such a situation, Singaporeans could probably just learn to be a lil' more forgiving.

Then again, maybe if I were to be stucked in a broken down train with no light nor electricity, I might have completely freaked out and vented my frustrations by hurling abuses over the internet ^^

Enough of the random blabber. Off to dreamland..

Baby sky, all the dreams & hopes are made of your eyes.

2011-11-26T04:58:00.003+08:00

Updating this space while waiting for supps. Chonun paego p'ayo (I'm hungry). At this rate, I'll prolly grow fat.

So anyhow, Super Novas (SIM cheer) held our first tryouts on Wednesday. The turnout wasn't too bad and we're hoping for an even better attendance come next Wednesday. The session went well cept for a minor hiccup at the beginning where I fell cause backspot dint support me :/ but thank god it wasn't from high. Other than that, I was just really excited to resume cheer. I don't ever think I'll be sick of it. There's so much more to learn and I have a long way ahead of me. I just want to do better. So I'm keeping my fingers crossed for cheer next Wednesday. Location had been shifted to UPCC again cause we couldn't secure a place in sch. Reason being that since we ain't an official cca yet, we couldn't be given any venue. This is going to be a tough road but I'm sure we'll pull through.

Besides that, my life at current is what the boy summed up to be eat shit watch videos eat think about shitting watch videos eat sleep. Ikr so unhealthy. But it should change soon I hope. Once the exams end for him, we can finally go out! Yayyy ^^

It had been great to meet and catch up with many of my close friends recently too. I'd also gone back to DBSK-ing & JYJ-ing. Lately, I've started on Sungkyunkwan Scandal as well. Not being biased just cause Park Yoochun is in it but it's also really funny. Been seriously thinking of taking Korean classes too but seems like those that are more convenient for me only have classes starting next year.. So we'll see.

Alright, this post is all over the place. I shall continue to patiently wait for my abalone bak chor mee :DD Om nom nom.

Stay still and close your eyes.

2011-11-22T06:01:00.003+08:00

Nocturnal yet again. When will I kick this bad habit :/ I blame youtube and tumblr. Had been hooked onto watching Sungkyunkwan Scandal and a lot of random JYJ/DBSK videos. Oh gawd, never ending. Anyhow, I should go rest before the sky starts turning bright. Dins at Holland V later tonight with the church mates I've not met in centuries. Bogoshipo, chingu ya!

Yellow diamonds in the light .

2011-11-13T00:11:00.001+08:00

Well well.. about time for an update on this neglected blog of mine. Had been doing some blogging on my tumblr instead all these while. Well, mostly reblogging actually. You must agree that tumblr is much more addictive. But, the thing about blogging on tumblr is that all my reblogs of pictures and quotes soon piles over my posts.. So yeah, here I am.

Here goes the mini photo spam to somewhat sum up what's been going on I guess..

Dessert with my two cheer bbgs :D

Super Novas' SIM student week performances :DD

The boyf ♥

Japchae omnomnomnom.

Conquering projects with the schoolmates.

Vanny's smurfy twenty-first!
Oh I love you bffs ♥

Lovely lahlings ♥

Crying for the umpteenth time while watching Harry Potter and The Chamber of Secrets. I'll never get sick of watching Potter, ever. Anyway, besides the student week cheer performance, I had another mini performance during one of the SIM hand/dodge ball matches. Then it was down to mugging madly for final exams again. I prolly dint mug as hard again, what's new? Though I must say I'm really worried about biz stats. It was the last paper, but never had I felt so doomed amidst the liberation :/ One of the worst papers I've ever taken thus far.

Since the exams, shopping, eating, watching tv, going out and sleeping pretty much sums up all I had been doing. Someone give me a job? I'm really excited to collect my new glasses but they have not SMSed me to do so ): Before I go, yes I do realize that my brows need some grooming. Oh! & so does my hair. Kthxbai ._.

Meanwhile..

2011-10-05T01:53:00.003+08:00

It's been awhile. There's so many pictures I want to post up here but yet it's these pictures precisely that I'm lazy to blog. It's just such a chore to upload pictures here :/ This weekend or smth maybe. Till then..

Oh darling don't you ever grow up.

2011-09-10T00:01:00.000+08:00

Happy fifty-seventh birthday dearest Daddy!!
Stay healthy & happy always.
I love you papa ♥

September.

2011-09-01T02:00:00.002+08:00

Happy Eighth boyf!

P.S. I love you ♥

I was screaming long live the walls we crashed through.

2011-08-15T02:12:00.004+08:00

So Jon and I took a tour at the National Museum of Singapore on national day this year. Free entry for us, cheap thrill ^^ Well, all I can say is there's really nothing much there :/ Nothing really fascinating for me but nonetheless it was time well spent with Jon.

Jon half squatting..

♥

We were at the museum pretty late, and as you know, museums closes pretty early. Thus we dint get to see all the galleries. Hmm.. maybe the peranakan or asian civilisation museum next since for all the times I've been there, it was for school and I've never actually took a good look at all the artifacts there. Took a walk up fort canning park thereafter, just in time for the fire works. Though there were buildings blocking some parts of the fire works show, I'd say that's a pretty decent place for fire works if you're not one for crowds.

This week marks week 6 of semester 1 for me. It's already the assessment week. One individual assignment paper due and an accounting test this week. Time is flying by. School had been nice thus far. I don't feel that it's a drag and I'm actually enjoying my lectures. Even though it's like accounting, organisational behaviour and marketing all over again.. Having taken these modules alr in TP helped. Made understanding a whole lot easier. Wonder why haven't I paid any attention during my TP days? Maybe a lil' bit of maturity is finally sinking in. Maybe I actually seek to do well in uni now. I thank God for bringing me this far.

Was watching Evan Almighty on Saturday evening, during the last scene when "God" appeared to Evan under the fig tree.. a sudden rush of emotions overwhelmed me and I broke down and cried. I don't know why.. but it felt as if God was telling me that He misses me. I feel blessed.

P.S. I miss you too, Father ♥

You've got that smile, that only heaven can make.

2011-08-09T01:25:00.003+08:00

Yeah, I know. It's been centuries since I last blogged. More than a month ago. Well, first.. HAPPY SEVENTH (& eight days) BOYF!! ^^ and next.. Happy 46th birthday Singapore!!

Alright, this is just going to be a brief update. It's currently 3.34am and I want to get to bed. So it's been close to a month since I started at SIM. Time flies.. and next week's assessment week already. Tests. Gees. OB individual assignment due next week too. Zomg zomg zomg. Okay breathe..

So today's National Day, where'd you be going?? :DD

& life makes love look hard.

2011-07-05T03:13:00.004+08:00

Often, people don't realize what they've got till they lose it someday. & darling, you're one that I'd never want to lose. This, I am that sure. Cheers to all our highs and lows, for it hadn't been easy. But I'm glad to have been through grey clouds and clear skies together with you by my side. Though I've said this once too many, Happy Sixth (& four days)!! :DD
"The stakes are high, the water's rough.. but this love is ours."

P.S. I love you.

Because you loved me.

2011-06-19T04:59:00.003+08:00

Happy Father's Day Daddy!
I love you ♥

Sa-wat-dee-kha.

2011-06-19T02:58:00.007+08:00

On our way to T1..

Visited mama Jane at T2 after checking in our luggages..

My favourite geek <3
(So gonna get killed for this :/)

Hello Bangkok ^^

Serene & Joshua.

Christine & Yongjun.

Wenfeng & Eugene.

ABUSE!!!

While waiting for out table at Baan Kanitha.. Expensive food :/

Jon & me :DD

Joey & Valerie.

I've zero photos of Christina & Zhenyi :/

Yummy Beef Vermicelli noodles at Siam Square. Serving so small I had two bowls at one go ^^

Chatuchak \m/

♥♥

Thank you many many again for the belated birthday present boyf. ^^

So here's 4D3N BKK compressed into a single blogpost. I regret not departing on an earlier flight there and returning with a later flight. First and last day totally wasted. Third day was spent waking up late )): In total.. we prolly had about 1.5 days of shopping and eating time there. So totally not enough. Still, the experience of their pubs, tiger show, clubs and foooood made up for it. I need to go back to BKK.. to shop.

We just wanna make the world dance.

2011-06-02T01:44:00.004+08:00

Graduated from Temasek Polytechnic,
Diploma in Hospitality and Tourism Management.

Daddy, Mummy and Kor were all held up by the HDB appointment thus not being able to attend my graduation but thank god I had both my aunts present (:

Sam :DD

Jme & Sindy (:

Jme & Sam.

Jme & Adel bao bei ers ♥

The bestest group mates one can ever ask for ^^

As we go on, we remember all the times we had together.. ♥

Tonight, I will love love you tonight.

2011-06-01T00:00:00.001+08:00

HAPPY FIFTH MONTHSARY BOYF ♥

"Yes. 5 months but nothing big what since we're gonna be together for 50 million months :D" - Jon
Awww, I love you ^^

Having gone through so much, I feel much closer to you than ever before.

I'm adamant that nothing could break us if we don't allow it to (:

You had been an amazing boyf, and I couldn't ask for more.

I love you boyf!!
Today shall be great though we're both sick from food poisoning/stomach flu :/

P.S. BKK updates after I've developed the pictures from my fisheye.

Lips like licorice, tongue like candy.

2011-05-15T01:53:00.003+08:00

So here I am, writing this entry with a mask on. Few days back, on two different occasions, both my mum and June asked why is my face so white? I really hope it's the good, bright white and not the pale like vampire white ): So yeah anyway, I need to go for facial. There are some pimples which had healed a while ago but there's still the pimple mark there. & some with small bumps still. Can someone tell me why my pimple marks always take so long to heal? :/ Although Jme's recommendation to apply vitamin E oil on pimples and marks really works. Pimples heal damn fast (Y) HOWEVER, it's still taking a while for my pimple marks to go away! Depressed max. *chants* facialfacialfacialfacialfacial.

Ladies night @ Zouk last Wednesday. Somewhat large group we had considering it was two groups combined.. E, Jeremy, Nick, Jinhong and Jerold.. Mok, Eadelin, Sandra, Joey, Derrick, Derrick's girlf, Angela, & her cousin. So anyway, thank you Mok for driving me down to Zouk! Saved me my cab fare ^^

Pictures with E are on my fisheye, and so are many other pictures I've taken. I can't wait to finish and develop the film. Damn eager to see how the photos would turn out.

Side ponytail hairdo for work on a rainy Friday the 13th.
It's been about a week at work.. If you still don't know where I'm part-timing, it's at Glacious. A frozen yogurt store at Nex. Even though I could easily get an admin/office job that pays a fixed 1.2k and above per month.. I don't think I'd want to be stuck sitting by a desk from 9-5 everyday. Well, at least not now. Yeah, so now I get to have froyo everyday! #everydayimfroyoing ^^ Besides.. I love their froyo!

Bkk trip is finally all set, flight and hotel all booked! (Cept informing my parents :/) Counting down eleven days. Perhaps I should start researching a bit on bkk to give myself a bit of a heads up huh? I was told to try out Baiyoke Sky Hotel's restaurant. Anyone tried that out before too? Really overjoyed. This long-awaited trip is about to be materialized :D

Besides pimple woes, Zouk night, work and bkk trip.. I've at last gotten my new passport and just another six days to my i/c collection. Was seriously getting sick of having to bring my passport out to club and then having the bouncers ask for my i/c number because they doubt that that's my passport. I can't really blame them though, the old one had my 11 or 12 yrs old picture on it. Even I don't think it's me :/

♥

2011-05-10T00:01:00.001+08:00

HAPPY FIFTY-SIXTH BIRTHDAY MUMMY!!
Love you deep deep many many nong nong time ^^
♥♥♥

Stockings ripped all up the side.

2011-05-09T01:41:00.003+08:00

Counting down eleven minutes to 2am, which would be bedtime for me. The night's finally a lil' cooler with gentle breezes blowing through my window. Work's at 10am later on and though I'm skeptical that I'd actually manage to fall asleep at 2, imma hope. I had just went on soccernet to check the score and well, my sleeping boy would be elated later in the morning with my text updating him that Man Utd had thrashed Chelsea 2-1 (assuming that I dint get the wrong info). Work had been so far so good, with only having done one shift. Dins later tonight with J and friends to finalize our bkk, this is dragging far too long :/ So.. I hope all mamas out there had a good mother's day. Besides mummy, I wish grandma in heaven had a great day too. I love you mama ♥

LOVE;

2011-05-04T07:24:00.000+08:00

Always protects, always trusts,
always hopes, it always perseveres.

I'd not expected to find love again this soon, but you came by and took me by surprise. As cliche or mushy this sounds, I thank God for having us meet under, what you call, a "fragile" circumstance. I need not elaborate on the series of events that unfolded thereafter, we'll keep it between you and me, our families, and dearest friends (: Four months into the relationship, I feel really comfortable with J. Like everything had stabilized. No doubt that we're still figuring each other out, I feel safe. Protected and secured. Reliant yet independent. The list goes on but most importantly, I feel loved. A selfless and unselfish love. & today, I thank you for..

1. being the best you can be.
2. always, always being there.
3. understanding me.
4. accepting me, for me.
5. your amazing patience.
6. edifying me with your gentle, kind, & loving words/actions.
7. never giving up on me, on us.
8. giving in and compromising.
9. being the reason for my happiness.

There's so much to just these few reasons but for blogging's sake.. I thank you for..

10. loving me wholeheartedly.

We've had quite a fair bit of both ups and downs which are just part and parcel of every relationship. The downs had only proven to be our stepping stones, and not stumbling blocks. Working towards a stronger foundation for us.

Once again, happy fourth my favourite boy ♥
To sum it up; I love you, so very, very much.

P.S. I hope this makes your Wednesday work-morning.
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From the boy after I ~~outrightly~~ casually mentioned that I liked this ^^

Third time posting pictures of my recent mani/pedi. But nice must post what.
Got it done with bbg E at FEP. The gelish mani that I did was considered cheap but what we dint realize was that you have to pay extra to remove gelish nails. Like wth. Apparently these gelish nails can last up to 21 days. I sure hope it would so it'd be worth the money. I must say that this new gelish nails thing is mad awesome cause it dries almost instantly. Probably just about 10 minutes under the UV light to cure the gelish nail polish and.. what?! Done! Great cause I'm most fearful of chipping my newly done nails. So anyhow, cheap thrill of the day was finding the gelish soak-off remover at a random shop at FEP. A bottle of it (can be used roughly thrice) cost only $9.90 as compared to removing it at a nail parlour for $20?!

Grumpy look to end off this entry because it's 7.23am and I am still up. Kthxbye.

Throw some glitter, make it rain on.

2011-04-27T05:27:00.000+08:00

Hohoho. Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls.. I is no longer a bummer! I've gotten a job ^^ Yayyy. Well, had really been sitting around doing pretty much nothing ever since my final module in poly ended. Was really bent on getting a job immediately initially, but I guess the taste of liberation and freedom soon got the better of me. Still, I'm glad I took about 2 whole months of "holidays". I've had loads of fun with Wang.. usssgflyershitloadsofmovieseateateatnonstopfroyooystermeesua
swimmingtanningmyawesome21stbirthdayshopping24/7.. so on and so forth. Also, not forgetting all the meet-ups with my favourite bffs that I've managed to have. All in all the past two months were great (Y) but now it's time to start earning some money to at least try to put back what I've been spending :/ I know.. talk so long but haven't tell you where I'm going to work right? Hmm.. maybe the next post or something. Ambiguous a bit. Hah. Well, it's nothing big but I like how the schedule can be really flexible for me and the proximity of the work place is real convenient. So yeah. Anyhow I'm here to update on bbg E's 21st birthday party.. Ikr. I've not even blogged about mine :/ Soon luh kay.

Lighting at her bed at Hard Rock's suite was just right..

But I can't say the same for the lighting in the living room area.

So anyway, this perhaps ain't a proper update of E's birthday cause the gazillion pretty and clear pictures I've snapped were on her camera and she has yet to upload any and I think she's going to take about a 100 years to do so. It was an awesome night. Crazy ass amount of alcohol and I think the drinking games managed to kill some of the guests. Best entertainer of the night has got to be Jeremy, E's classmate. He's pretty hilarious, I like (Y) So I think the killer alcohol of the night was the absinthe. I dint drink too much of it thankfully since it tasted badly of medicine/cough syrup. Cheers to 'Going hard, party rock' Happy twenty-first, I love you bbg! ♥ ^^

After I was done getting prep-ed up for the party..

Waiting endlessly for Mok & Eadelin for 2 hours -.-

This baby arrived yesterday around mid noon and thanks to FindMY who delivered it personally to me last night, I've it sitting right next to me as I blog now. So elated! Had been wanting a Fisheye Lomo for ages and at last! ^^ Loaded it with its first roll of film already and I can't wait to get out and snap away with it later :DD

Anyhow.. Wang is starting work today! & is waking up soon to prepare and get to work. So happy that he had gotten a job and is going to have monetary inflow again instead of just outflow all the time. However.. that kinda mean lesser time for us now ): But it's okay I guess. School will eventually commence for both of us, perhaps it's good for us to get used to starting now. Not meeting for a day or two or three wouldn't kill anyway. Love you anyhow ^^

This week I've gotta meet E and do our mani/pedi, collect my graduation gown at TP, meet up together with Wang's bffs to settle the details of our bkk trip, start packing my rooms cause I'm shifting soon, attend Gaya's 21st and meet K up if possible. All these before I officially start work next week.. On a really disappointing note, dad and mum won't be able to attend my graduation ceremony ): Even my brother can't.. All cause the appointment with HDB has to so unluckily clash. !@#$%^&*() Pfft. Why so suay one? Ah but it's okay luh.. My aunts will be taking my parents' place instead.

So.. my resolution to sleep earlier like by 3am was to no avail yet again. Why am I always so awake during the unearthly hours? I think I need more will power. Alright, imma crash before the sun rises. Wang is going to scold me.. sigh )):

That's the price, That's the price I'll pay.

2011-04-23T04:16:00.004+08:00

& I'm still missing cheer very much. Haven't gotten back in training. I know I very much want to keep cheering cause whenever I picture myself stunting, there's an adrenalin rush; butterflies in my tummy, heart starts racing madly, I get so excited I start hyperventilating. I'm not even kidding. There's so much more to what I can learn and so much more that I want to do. I'm not satisfied. Even if my torn hamstrings and lousy fitness stand in my way, imma fight away these imperfections to fly up high into the open skies.

I've finally, finally, at last got my IC replaced and passport renewed at the ICA this week. So thankful for Wang accompanying me there though the entire process dint take long, which was good cause we managed to shop for E's birthday present. Btw E, if you're reading this.. Wang contributed a dollar to your present. He wants you to know that. Lol. So anyway, I can't wait for your celebration at Hard Rock Suite later. Make sure we snap a gazillion pictures alright ^^
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Y'know.. If I was ever given a chance to erase a section of my life/a part of my memory/someone.. it has to be you. Perhaps you might reckon that I'm really mean and bad but you've got no idea how much you torment me, up till today. Everything was a mistake and you, unfortunately, are a nightmare. So horrible that I cringe and get very upset on the inside. It's this overwhelming regret that I can never seem to put into words that could ever justify how intense it actually is. I'll regret for life because it's a fact that the past is irreversible.
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Supper at Swee Choon down at Jalan Bersah and then Mustafa shopping late into the night with my favourite people whom I've not seen in a while. Dim Sum was too sumptuous, I'd recommend their siew mai, red bean crispy pancake, xiao long bao (of course), har kao.. basically almost everything we gobbled down that night. Somehow I feel that their Si Chuan Dan Dan La Mian isn't as good as the very first time I had tasted it though. To walk off all the bloatedness, we decided to visit the new Mustafa extension. Wasn't too bad and I got off with some loots as well. Mainly a hair product and a pair of sole-padding which I thought was a lil' expensive :/ Highlight of the night was applying tons of make-up on Dennis' wrist, as seen above (Y) Anyhow, Wang certified me a true shopaholic then cause I seriously kinda shop 24/7. Be it in shopping malls or Bugis street/Haji Lane, and also online.. it's really getting outta hand huh? At this rate, imma use up my BKK fund ):

I really hope the trip with Wang and his friends would be finalized soon cause c'mon, who wouldn't want to get to BKK to shop? & not to mention, authentic Thai cuisine? I want the trip so badly I even just dreamt about it yesterday ^^ So.. hurry ppl! We've got to beat iron when it's hot! (打铁趁热）
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P.S. I'm so thankful that you're back home safe and sound tonight bbb. Now, sleep tight darlin' (:

/P.P.S. You'll never know what's going to hit you in life. This Easter, my prayer's for total healing upon you. By His stripes, you are healed. To you and your wonderful family, stay strong. Our God is greater and He reigns. God bless.

Spinning like a bay-blade.

2011-04-13T23:59:00.001+08:00

Haven't been taking much pictures, so here you go with long ago unposted pictures. Maybe not so long ago.. but long enough.

Mdm Fauziah; my favourite CSO at Changi. Super motherly and nice to talk to. Thank God for that shitty incident at T1 that night.. :/ But that was one horrendous case. Seriously. One fine night at the airport, this English seaman decided to turn up for his flight back to UK totally wasted. When DTM Mukthar, my partner, Merlvin, and I arrived at the scene it was said that the drunk seaman had already been lying dead asleep at the public area of T1 for close to 2/3 hours? To cut the long horrible few hours of handling that case short.. The drunk seaman was covered in puke and even sleeping on it. He probably also subconsciously removed his jeans, therefore was only in his boxers lying on the floor. The best part that summed up our shitty night was that he also shat/shitted in his boxers while in that drunken stupor.. The stench at that point of time? You will NEVER EVER want to imagine. Poor us. Especially the cleaners who had to clean up all of the mess on the floor when he finally regained consciousness. Well, Mdm Fauziah, DTM Mukthar and the Cisco riders were all exceptionally professional in handling this incident and made sure to contact the seaman's agent and all.. settled his accommodation for the night and even booked the next return flight to UK for him. Not number one airport for nothing :DD

Group picture with mama Jane ^^
Merlvin, me, Jane & DTM Lynette.

Since I was getting hungry, I decided to put up some food pictures. But after looking at these, it really got me craving terribly for all sambal stingray, kangkong and lala all at once. I am starving now. Must go chomps soon once J recovers from his tonsils infection.

Speaking of which.. J had just left on a cruise trip with his buddies this afternoon. Boo ): I hope he wouldn't get hooked to the casino. Anyhow, I woke up feeling horrid this morning. Dizzy max like some ginormous tidal wave had hit me. Couldn't walk straight even when I got up to brush my teeth. I've never felt like this before. Later on in the day while on msn with my senior complaining about my head spinning all day long, he left me a wiki link to this thing called vertigo. & yeah, I guess that's what I have now still. Making my head spin like a bay-blade, except that it hasn't stopped spinning. Felt nauseous and like vomiting.. Even panadol dint help. I seriously hope it will go away after a night's rest :/ Why like that now when J is away?! ):

Anyhow, while watching some detective/forensic science show on channel U with daddy earlier on.. there was this scene in which the detectives concluded that one shouldn't listen to their mp3 and use their cell phones while crossing the road. Daddy totally exploded in a very loud "SEE!!" right after that line was made, which kinda gave me a scare though I knew it was coming. Just dint expect it to be thaaat loud. My papa cute hor?

Okay luh. I should probably go rest. The actual time now is 2.44am already :/ Oh, & I finally traveled down to Clementi and applied at SIM the other day. Uni application is done but sad to say, I've been lazy and have not gotten my IC replaced and passport renewed. Heh. It's almost mid-april already. Gotta get down to planning BKK trip with Chels and both our Js :DD

Lucky we're in love in every way.

2011-04-06T05:14:00.000+08:00

Singapore Flyer to celebrate our third month ((: It sure dint feel like a thirty minute ride at all. After reaching the highest point, while still happily snapping away with my camera and iPhone, before we know it we were already descending :/ But I must say that the night view of the city was spectacular. Really pretty. What more to say cept happy third, my favourite boy ^^

FEP-ed with bbg, E on Tuesday. No photos of us cause we were too lazy so all I got is this of my nails after express mani at Cinderella. Not too bad for a $4, student price, express mani. Sat in the shop till my butt rotted while having to watch 爱 as we waited for her pedi to be done. Catching up was great. We totally missed out much with each other while being busy with classes, projects, reports and my internship. More to come if I do end up at SIM too. Can't wait :D

I've decided to end this entry with a picture of myself. Vainpot much, I know ^^ Migraine is killing me and I feel myself falling sick. I need more sleeppp. But anyway, I really really desire to go back to cheer leading. & I wonder if I should join my friends at Legacy? It'd be my first try at a competitive team and I'm not exactly the most flexible person around. Especially since that now both my hamstring seem to be injured, no freaking idea why. Plus, my fitness level is baddd now. Oh dear.. :/ But the thing is.. I NEED cheer leading in my life!

Easy come, easy go.

2011-03-30T02:17:00.003+08:00

Beautiful rainbow caught after the downpour on Sunday evening (: That must have been only the second time I chanced upon a rainbow. Never had the habit of looking into the skies after a downpour and even when I did, I aint usually that lucky. So that rainbow completed my lazy Sunday :D

Well hello blogger. My last dated entry on this space is 04/03, today.. it's already 30/03. How time flies. So results were finally out and I can't be any more glad to say that I've graduated from TP - HTM. Awesome much ^^ Three years flew by just like that. I'm blessed with some really great ppl I met there and I'm just really thankful. Not to forget Chels too, we've gotten closer and tighter thanks to HTM. Well friends, you know who you are.. I love you. Thank you for filling my days at TP with love and laughter ((:

Been bumming around much ever since school ended so I decided to get out in the sun with the boy on Monday. It felt good to be doing something new again together. So we impromptu-ly got down to serangoon swimming complex for a swim. Well, actually he swam and I tanned..

My camera app made the day look a lil' cloudy but my sun burn is prove that the sun was scorching :/

Showered and headed to Nex for Morning Glory. Rachel McAdams is forever gorgeous. Had breakfast/lunch/dinner, yogurt and some fun at the arcade in between before our movie commenced. Oh, I've got to say.. the froyo store, Glacious at Nex is pretty good. Comparable to Red Mango's and now I'm swayed from being a kinda hardcore Red Mango fan into loving Glacious more. Hmmm >:/ I should prolly stop talking about froyo cause I'm really really craving it now.

Anyhow, I'm really hoping I'll get my passport renewed and IC replaced later finally. So I guess it's bedtime now if I'm thinking of waking up early to get to ICA. & only after that is done, can I proceed with my uni application. So many things on my mind, that when I start thinking of 'em individually, I get a massive headache. God bless my soul.

P.S. Idk why but Rebecca Black's Friday is stuck in my head now. Shittt!

Posting photos of my twenty-first on fb and twenty-first birthday blog entry soon. Stay tuned ((:

Lovely March.

2011-03-04T03:23:00.004+08:00

First and foremost, happy second to my most wonderful boy ♥
Headed down to USS on the day itself and it was fabulous ^^

Well, as requested by several of you and after wrecking my brains.. here goes..

G's 21st birthday wish-list:

> ANYTHING from Chanel or Tiffany & Co. (HAH. Well, you asked.)
> Longchamp tote - preferably long handle & able to fit A4 in Bilberry or Pink or from the Le Pliage Paris series.
> Fisheye 2 camera!! (in case you have no idea how it looks like, click here.)
> Toms in Classic Canvas Coral (if you can find it. Image.)

> Uh. Nothing's really coming to my mind now but when it does, i will update it here so check back again or something. I hope ppl don't all end up buying the same thing :/

Anyhow, here are some random things I like, see if it could help. Burberry. Anna Sui. Ralph Lauren. Kate Spade. Agnes B. Hello Kitty. Pascal from Rapunzel. Bags. Manhattan Pottage. Crumpler. Rings. Owls. Apparels. Pink. Blue. Red. Pastel Yellow. Navy. Light bluish purple. Cheerleading. Badminton. Jackets. Sweaters. Cardigans. Dresses. Baaagggs. Money. Shopping. Forever21. Facial. Mani/Pedi.
(Okay, I'm really tired alr. Any updates will be posted in the "/edits" section below. Sankewbellymuch :D)

/edits: -

You are the best thing that's ever been mine.

2011-02-13T18:51:00.001+08:00

Gandalf.

Jade.

Chinese New Year 2011

Fluffball.

Love ♥

My mind is at a blank, thus I decided on a picture spam since it's been quite awhile since I last blogged as well. Had a terrible nightmare which woke me up feeling lost and defeated. Hours later, those feelings are still lingering which got me pretty much moodless for anything. Not good when there's a research paper on hand to be completed. I hate how unhappy thoughts and feelings overwhelms me and plunge me deep into feeling sad and frustrated. I need my beybee now ):

Procrastinated for almost 3 hours since finishing lunch to start with my research paper but to no avail. Now, I can't quite decide whether to take a nap to sleep off the headache or to actually start on some serious work. Till then..

Now every February, you'll be my valentine.

2011-02-02T05:03:00.004+08:00

I’m scared I won’t add up to your expectations. I’m not perfect, I’m not gorgeous, I don’t have the prettiest smile or the most banging body. I’m not going to be cute every second of the day & I’m not always going to look my greatest. I’m not always going to know the right thing to say & the right time to say it. I am very emotional & I do have pretty bad moodswings. I usually over react over dumb little things & cry over nothing. I’m afraid I won’t add up to your ex girlfriend, but I am willing to try my hardest. I get jealous but that only proves that I care enough not to lose you. I make assumptions & I will argue until I get my point across. I’m impatient, insecure & at times, selfish - but I’m trusting you with something that I know you can break. I’m going to trust you with everything I’ve got & put my heart out for everyone to see. I’m going to accept you for the person you are & love you for the person you help me to be. So if you choose to love me, then love me for me - for who I am, for what I hope to become, for the drama that you’re going to have to go through & for the flaws I come with.

- (stolen from Chels' blog)

Do you feel my heart beating?

2011-01-26T04:45:00.001+08:00

I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure

I had been the most fearful and skeptical of love for a long time. I built walls, an entire castle around myself. Those walls so high, it was tough to scale it. I thought by doing so that I was protected, I thought I could be invincible and never fall again. Yet at the end of the day, I gained nothing and lost every single chance of having love. Why every time we choose to love, we get vulnerable? Why should we be subjected to the possibility of getting hurt? Why do we choose to trust, and then fear that every single promise made would be broken? I guess I'd never find out why do we love, but love is what keeps us going on. It wasn't easy, but I'm glad to have stopped being in control of what I feel and let my feelings run free.

Cause boy, you came and took me by surprise ♥

Everyday, you're the first & last thing on my mind.

2011-01-20T00:49:00.003+08:00

& every other second, you're all I think of ♥

Am dead tired and dying to sleep now but my cough & tummy upset is stealing every single second of sleep left from me )): Morning shift today & the boy's gonna be waking me up at 5plus. I should try turning in again after this entry. I've not been blogging in awhile aye?

So.. I've gotten my iPhone 4!! Finally decided on iPhone so I went to queue for it right after my night shift at Bugis. Though it did cost me a hefty sum of close to 800 :/ thank god for mummy who subsidized almost all of it that I'm not broke now ((: 22 more days till my favorite boy is forever outta tekong, & regains his freedom & most importantly his pink IC ^^ 11 more days till internship ends and back to TP for me. I've been stressed recently ever since the most recent classroom session on the 15th. So many deadlines to meet! & only about 2 weeks to complete the research paper after it gets approved. Internship report to do up before 31st. Research paper draft by 23rd. Napfa on the 15th of Feb :/ (tell me why do I have to take napfa again?) & research paper due on the 16th. Thereafter there's still the research interview. Oh goddd!!! Why so many things?! Sigh. Thankfully it's gonna be the last lap of poly life. Seriously can't wait to graduate.

Sick again (& so is the boy). Hate it when it's a cough. I always get woken up coughing and then can't fall back to sleep cause I can't stop coughing. This suck much. I've about 4 hours of slp left ): on a happier note, Chinese new year is coming!! Can't wait at all!! All the bak kwa, cornflake cookies, mee siam... Om nom nom. I'm damn hungry now, stomach is growling again. Need to go Chinese new year shopping with the boy ^^ okay dokes. I should turn in now or Wang is going to be scolding me very badly later :/ wan an!!

Every time I think of you, I always catch my breath.

2011-01-07T19:19:00.005+08:00

Happy 2011 ((:

I counted down to the new year with love in the cinema watching Love and Other Drugs. Love the show except maybe for the countless number of times that Anne Hathaway boobs spilled out onto the screens but Jake Gyllenhaal made up for it by being overly charming. Spent the rest of the night at Clarke Quay with some friends whom J played drinking games with while I skipped on it cause I dint wanna aggravate my bad cough :/ 01.01.11 ♥

So 7 days later, I've been busy with work still & J's been busy with the graduation parade for the recruits. Prolly another 21/24 days more till the end of internship. I can't quite figure out if I'd actually be happy or sad when it ends. I just know I really dread going back to school, I can't wait to graduate. Really.

Life thus far in 2011 has been good, & I hope it stays this way. Or maybe get even better ((:

Before 2011..

2010-12-31T02:17:00.000+08:00

On the last day of 2010.. this calls for a picture spam.

30th December 2010

Dinner at DTF, 29th Dec.

Braised Beef Brisket noodles. This is awesome (Y)

XLBs are forever great!!

Shrimp pork wanton tossed in special broth.

Om nom nom ^^

♥

babygirl ♥

At mehnerner.

Christmas Eve ♥
The Asian Kitchen.

Waiting painstakingly for foooood.

Chili soft shell crab (Y)

XLBs again!!

Owl O.O

Chanel for me, Braun Buffel for him.

♥

Bobby's @ Chijmes.

Gayaya ♥

Lynn ♥

Very awesome Flaming Lambo.

Christmas day ♥

Brief meeting with the boy before he went for his family dinner and I, for my steamboat.

♥♥♥

Boxing day ♥

Butter bread man from Lynn.

♥

From love ♥

Lovely ring from Diva O.O

So that sums up my entire Christmas week till now. Less than 24 hours away from 2011!! Mannn, am I excited. Tuning out for now, morning shift at the airport later. So deaddd ): Alright, till then.. HAPPY NEW YEAR!! XOXO, G ♥♥♥

So this is Christmas.

2010-12-28T05:16:00.004+08:00

Compliments of the season ((: So.. Christmas dint turn out too bad after all. Spent the eve with the boy having a good dinner at The Asian Kitchen before heading down to Chijmes to countdown with Lynn & Gaya while the boy attended midnight mass. Had a great time at Chijmes, food & drinks, although I would have loved counting down to Christmas with J beside me still. This year, I had a different Christmas day by having steamboat. It was going good till it started pouring badly and I was stucked under a big umbrella, my only shelter which was slightly damaged & water leaked from it, with the strong winds blowing the rain into our faces. Still, thankfully our big umbrella managed to keep Lynn, Daniel and me 95% dry or Christmas would have turned into a disaster. The boy came to pick me up for home after his family dinner since I was due for morning shift on Boxing day :/ I received a phone call which got me euphoric, & completed Christmas for me (:

Boxing day was spent with J as well after morning shift at the airport. We caught Gulliver's Travels which was hilarious and pretty awesome (Y) I'd give it a 4 or 4.5/5 stars rating. All too soon, it's back to exile island for the boy. I now dread Sundays :/ but thank god it'd just be for another one and a half months.

So, that kinda summed up my Christmas but I know it aint over yet. Three more days to the new year, I'm all psyched up! Are you ready for 2011? Need to start thinking about those new year resolutions! Anyway, here's wishing you guys a Happy New Year in advanced (Y)

P.S. Hey baybeeboy. Thank you so much for making sure I spent not a single moment alone during this Christmas season. Thank you for taking the effort to make sure Christmas wouldn't suck for me because I kept saying it would. For going out into the rain to pick me up after my steamboat though you were already warm and cosy at home. For doing so many things to make me happy; the Chanel perfume, the handwritten card & letter, fake Chanel perfume tester strip, your very lame sense of humour, the kitty & Chanel rings, mee sua & pink dolphin, movie, wearing the grey checkered shirt, your jacket, busing me home before returning to exile, & for the gentle loving words you say to me. I thank God for you. It's been a wonderful Christmas with you, a lil' bumpy on that night but we'll only get better. Thank you baybeeboy ♥

All I want for Christmas...

2010-12-20T16:28:00.002+08:00

Counting down five days to Christmas 2010. Last Christmas, I was all hyped up & anticipating it cause I know Christmas can't go wrong with K around. This Christmas, I'm dreading it cause it's not the same without her. Nonetheless, I'm still thankful to have my family, wonderful friends & J with me. Christmas will still be good. Yeah, it will.

Another year is coming to an end. Why does time have to go by so fast? Though I'm glad 2010 is coming to an end, cause it's been a whirlwind of a year. I've been in a mess, I got out & up, then I fell again. In summary, it has just been a bad year for me. Yet in this bad year, good things had happened to me so I ain't complaining. Perhaps it's now time to sit down & really think of resolutions for the new year. Time to let go, to forgive and to forget, to make up, to move on, to face your fears, to open up, to love and to be loved. & so I'm glad that in this joyful season, I'm loved ♥

I feel your whisper across the sea.

2010-12-10T06:08:00.000+08:00

The end of fear is where we begin.

Twelve/Thirteen.

This is real so take a chance and don't ever look back.

2010-12-03T05:00:00.002+08:00

Fourteen point five.

That is why all the girls in town follow you all around.

2010-12-01T23:53:00.006+08:00

Lust ♥

Throw in the puppy too please.

Kiss me on the sidewalk, take away the pain.

2010-11-30T05:55:00.002+08:00

In an instant, life could be over and you'd regret having never done all that you should have. So very precious, yet undeniably fragile. I'd never want to leave this world not living life to the fullest if I could. If only you knew what the future holds. If I could, I'd throw away every single insecurities to fall in love. But just when everything would seem so right, it'd all go so horribly wrong. Call me skeptical, but I've a fear of my heart shattering again. Perhaps just a lil' while more, I see the rainbow appearing in the midst of this thunderstorm.

Love is not a feeling, it's an ability.

2010-11-30T05:30:00.002+08:00

Dear Holly, I don't have much time. I don't mean literally, I mean you're out buying ice cream and you'll be home soon. But I have a feeling this is the last letter, because there is only one thing left to tell you. It isn't to go down memory lane or make you buy a lamp, you can take care of yourself without any help from me. It's to tell you how much you move me, how you changed me. You made me a man, by loving me Holly. And for that, I am eternally grateful... literally. If you can promise me anything, promise me that whenever you're sad, or unsure, or you lose complete faith, that you'll try to see yourself through my eyes. Thank you for the honor of being my wife. I'm a man with no regrets. How lucky am I. You made my life, Holly. But I'm just one chapter in yours. There'll be more. I promise. So here it comes, the big one. Don't be afraid to fall in love again. Watch out for that signal, when life as you know it ends.

P.S. I will always love you.
- Gerry Kennedy

♥

Let's runaway to the place, where love first found us.

2010-11-22T03:47:00.004+08:00

"The most heartbreaking part of a breakup
is that moment when you realize that all the dreams you had,
all those visions you had being with this person disappears.
Everything after that moment is moving on." - Taylor Swift

Philophobia; fear of falling in love or being in love. Till I know how to get rid of you, my heart is in chaos. They say time could heal and time would help. If so, let me fall head over heels in love all over again.

Cause after you, my heart died.

2010-11-15T06:51:00.001+08:00

Till now, I am but an untold story.

So we're gonna skip along.

2010-11-10T04:14:00.003+08:00

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment. I'm so scared but I don't show it. I can't figure it, it's bringing me down I know. I've got to let it go. - Lenka, The Show.

I'm a flght risk with a fear of falling.

2010-11-08T04:33:00.003+08:00

I find the need to constantly remind myself that fairy tales do not exist, so I wouldn't come crashing when I realize that reality is a far cry from it. It could be the source of happiness for me, but perhaps now is not the right time for it. If it's for me, then it will surely stay right? We'll see.

Please don't stop the music.

2010-11-08T03:55:00.006+08:00

My latest love ♥

♥

Life had on the whole been generally good lately. That is if Mount Merapi is not going to erupt again & cause CGK airport and the airspace to be closed or it might be chaos at work again. Nonetheless, it would be a good experience still. & seriously, they should be giving TP interns our pay like now. All the other interns from other schools had already received theirs. How to go shopping like that, you tell me? :/

To one of the loveliest, awesomest, greatest BFF,

HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY DENNIS TAN ZENG WEI!!!
I lurbee euu many many, deep deep, nong nong timexzxzxz! ♥♥♥

Sometimes the things you can't change, end up changing you.

2010-11-06T01:33:00.003+08:00

There's so many uncertainties, I feel like I'm permanently confused. My head's in a whirlwind. Everyday I fight to be happy. It's been a lot easier recently, but I'm afraid it's not yet enough. I have my fears and issues, I'm only human. Sometimes I wished people would stop thinking I'm invincible.

If perfect's what you're searching for...

2010-11-02T03:15:00.005+08:00

Follow your heart with no doubt.
If it's right, you'll succeed.
If it's wrong, you'll learn.

Life as it is. I need space to breathe, & to be as awesome as I can be. If narrow is the way to my dreams, I was never game for the easy way out anyway. Some day you'd stop looking for perfection & realize that the real you lies in the beauty of your flaws.

Happy Halloween!

2010-10-31T19:16:00.002+08:00

Seema.

Zai!

Halloween 2010 was awesome! (Y) Was pretty annoyed by the traffic jam we were caught in with Seema's car, the mad long queue outside Rebel & the sardined packed dance floor but nonetheless, the night was good. Took minimal pictures cause I dint dress up anyway. Bumped into many last night, best of it all was Zai :D I could prolly dress up as a vampire next year if I continue getting fairer. So who's up for Halloween 2011?! ♥

Live and let live.

2010-10-21T05:13:00.004+08:00

Time sure flies. Unknowingly, one month had gone by since internship commenced. I don't know about you, but I love CAG so much I'd never want to go back to school. Sadly, that wouldn't be the case since there's one last module to go before liberation from poly. Weeks went by just like that. It's hard to tell a weekday apart from a weekend now cause of the shift work. Weirdly, night shift's my fave though it is pretty tough to keep your eyes widely opened and to look fresh at 5am in the morning while out on grounds assisting passengers.

Well, here's some pictures before we all got split up into five different teams covering different shifts.

Wonderful Jane, our CSO instructor in the middle.
She's like our mama.

All the TP interns in full black for the CCI Icon showcase.

Karaoke after a long tiring day.

We decided we needed to have good food everyday before we got all separated, so it was restaurants after restaurants each day :/
This was at Swensens on the day of SMILE orientation.

Towards the end...
All TP & NP interns had a game of badminton then karaoke session after our "office hours".

There you go.

Those were the training days, haven't quite gotten down to picture taking with my team yet cause we're always roving the grounds or busy with something. It has been a joy thus far, and I hope it'll only get better ((:

JYJ.

2010-10-17T23:59:00.002+08:00

http://www.dbsknights.net/

Today has got to be the best day of my life. I saw JYJ right before me, a mere few meters away. My lucky stars must have been shining on me. No way could I have gotten this lucky to be in the right place at the right time. Kim Junsu was the best part of it all ♥

Week one.

2010-09-26T23:57:00.004+08:00

18 outta 19 weeks of internship left. Week one is just over. I can't say I've learnt much. It's a serious case of information overload, I don't even know what do I remember. Honestly, having to know all three terminals, including both the public and transit areas, at your fingertips ain't an easy task. I just hope to digest information faster. That aside, I'm really looking forward to week two at CAG. Changi Airport is amazing. I'd never imagine myself saying this, but I'm already feeling sad that there's only eighteen weeks of internship left. Anyhow, I'm all prep-ed for week two. & that should include sleeping early. It's 1am already & I should be crashing.

Kanchiong spider.

2010-09-20T22:54:00.002+08:00

So I survived the first day of internship without being late. Trust me, I'm always almost notoriously late. Well, I'd like to call it being fashionably late instead but yeah, I know it's a bad habit I've got to kick. Maybe today could be the first step, I hope? 25 minutes early, I even managed a quick breakfast at BK's before the training started. Idk if it were nerves or was I being too afraid that I'd be late, I had to keep reminding myself to breathe while on the way to the airport this morning. Funny how we can sometimes forget to breathe aint it?

Ha-na.

2010-09-13T02:53:00.005+08:00

♥

The Asian Kitchen

Cafe Cartel

American cheesecake.
& btw, our ice cream took 25mins and it never came. Great.

Had been tasting liberation since Thursday. I can't be any more glad that the final exam's over, then again who isn't? A few more days to sleep, shop, eat and party away before internship starts on the 20th of this month. That's another 19weeks to endure, it wouldn't had been bad if we dint have those portfolio things to do and classroom sessions to attend :/ Internship could have been a breeze. Oh well, beats having exams and what's more, I get paid (Y)

So, an update on the hamsters. Puss and Bully have since been separated into different cages since Puss keeps getting bitten by Bully, it's terrible seeing her bleed. But I guess Bully had been punished since her bottle leaked the other day and I came home to find a drenched Bully. She looked hilarious, though the lil' poor bugger was shivering, I had to blow dry her with the hair dryer. Both are now living in peace on their own now, makes me smile just watching them sleep. & big thanks to Chels for loaning her huge cage to me :D

Last week of hols for me. I've got many to meet with, hongkong drama to watch, my rooms to tidy, shopping to be done, and time to spend with drich. Can I have more time please?
BB or Iphone 4?!

Happy birthday 大嫂! ♥

Scratch and win.

2010-08-30T03:11:00.004+08:00

Am totally addicted to this drama on youtube called Make It or Break It and it's about gymnastics. All thanks to Drich for introducing it to me, I'm quite hooked to it. Exams are a week away, and I've not touched my notes at all. I'm starting to really panic. I should start today yes? & I ought to set my bioclock right again; why do I keep screwing it up? :/

Drich and I went to Vivo yesterday since we decided to take a break from training this week and had a pretty good time eating our entire day away. Literally. Our day was all about food. It even ended with us getting some pretty awesome sushi at the Cold Storage at great deals for dinner. I'll soon grow very fat, I've gotta train harder. Chilling at the rooftop did us some good to sit back to just enjoy the evening.

Alright so, it's about 4am now and I should be about heading to bed. I'm turning nocturnal again, this is not good. Oh, and my hamsters are still totally at odds with each other still. I found out yesterday that Bully bit Pussy and she bled slightly, but she's alright now. I myself got bitten pretty hard by Bully while I was trying to get her outta her pink house. Gees. She's turning into a monster :/

I love the way you lie.

2010-08-24T03:19:00.001+08:00

Daddy once told me that good friends don't have to meet and talk all the time to stay close and connected. I've never put much thought into that sentence because I used to think that he only said that so I would perhaps stay at home more often and go out lesser with my friends during my secondary school days. But now, I find that it's true.

You don't have to meet all the time and talk endlessly to be close to your friends. What's most important is that you understand each other. Not meeting often doesn't mean that you don't care about them, nor that you won't be around for them. In our current era, social networking sites are a fantastic tool to keep connected. Well, lest your friend ain't a facebook or twitter addict. There's always still msn. Take my bffs and I for example, none that I meet regularly and I only talk to perhaps Eldora at least once in two nights. & yet every time we meet, I don't feel like we're disconnected nor distant. Yes of course we'll have to update each other on our lives from where we had last left off but closeness-wise, it's still the same. At the end of the day, I know that these bunch of friends will be there rain or shine. I think that's enough.

Praise God for the awesome friends I have though some chose to leave here and there, it's okay cause maybe they're just friends for a season. What life had taught me thus far is that friends come and go. Only the true ones stays, and they're the ones who are truly worth every bit of your time and love. Some friends will stray away, but eventually they'll find their way back. Some will never understand you, some will never know you. Some will even misunderstand you, & some will end up stabbing you in the back. But these are just part and parcels of life. Deal with it. Even though it leaves you with endless doubts, human behaviours are not something that's easily understandable anyway. At the end of the day, it doesn't matter as long as you know who your true friends are.

Food for thought.

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On a lighter note, my hamsters are called Bully & Pussy. Cause one's a big bully and the other is a downright pussy. They're funny to watch though, especially Pussy. They're getting fatter and it's about only the fifth day since I'd gotten them :/ But that was my initial plan anyhow. To have them fat fat so that when I turn them over, instead of wasting strength on trying to get back up, they'll just fall asleep. Sounds weird? Well, that happened to my previous hamsters 12345 years ago. Maybe I should put in the wheel for them to start exercising soon huh?

I'm starting to screw up my bio-clock again. I'd better go straight to bed once I end this post. Coursework grades are out and yay! I think I did quite alright. My papers start next month, and I've not touched anything at all. It seem like my coursemates had started mugging, and it's seriously beginning to scare me. Jme Lee if you see this, hurry let's start mugging! (Now that you're back from HKG alr!) Okay, this entry is getting lengthy but oh well.

Cheer on Sunday was awesome. Finally saw Jiayu after a hell long time, & it was great having some talk time with her. Stunts-wise, it was fannnnntastic. Continued to work on my elevator pop with Marcus and Aldrich (nothing much but it was without a backspot, so it makes me have to work harder.) For old times sake, Dennis and I did our shoulder sit to hands. Did a single lib with CC. Some partner stunts and a group lib with Marcus and Aldrich. Oh and I also followed on with an arabesque after the lib. Nothing big but at least I managed to hit it (: Did everything without a backspot that day. Though I did crash, slightly injuring my ankle, shoulder and neck, thank God it wasn't anything serious. I'm pumped up for more cheer leading (Y)

Can't wait for the BBQ on Friday ^^ Okay, bedtimezzz. Meeting drich later for dinner and some chocolates to help me feel better with my nasty period. Dang, why can't guys be the ones having it? :/

Life's too short, we shouldn't wait for the water to run dry.

2010-08-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday Tan Li Ling!
Have a great nineteenth. I love you babygirl ♥
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K. No need for assumptions, this time you're right. I hate it that we're both still kids with mouthfuls of pride. I'm not sure if things could be like before but this seem to me like another one of those lil' tiffs we had back when I was 9 and you were 12. I don't believe what we had called 'sisterhood' for the past 11 years could be this easily broken. Much has happened as well, & I wished I've got you by my side. Maybe I used to depend too much on you in the past, maybe that's why you feel used. I don't know what or where went wrong, but I'd like for things to be alright again. When's the time? No one knows. Though I reckon that we've already lost precious time being mad and proud, it's about time we swallowed our prides.

Friday the Thirteenth in August.

2010-08-17T20:01:00.005+08:00

Twin. ♥ you ttm.

Adel, my favourite alien ♥

Eadelin, she's mad crazy ♥

Mok.

Calvin.

The Diva ♥

Drich ♥

Tolne! ♥

A Friday night well spent. Baileys, Whisky, Martell, Vodka (Y) Sick of alcohol already though. Been ages since I last met E, Eadelin, Nige, Mok and the rest. It was an awesome night spent with real awesome people. I love these people way more than I love you guys. Then again, I don't think I love you, you, or you anymore cause I've gotten a lil' more cold since then. Yes, I'm still angsty. I have every right to. But it only means that after being angsty for a day or two, you will not affect me in any way anymore. So seriously, shut up and quit trying to upset me just to inject some form of entertainment into your mediocre lives.

Back to cheer after a long hiatus. Thank God I've not completely been covered in rust yet. Managed my pop twist, b-toss and single lib still (Y) Though things still seem awkward, I'll hang on. Praise God for speaking words of wisdom to me.

Am about to starve to death while waiting for A to pick me from home before we head for dinner. I can't quite decide if I should have some Frolick later, it's been awhile...

I'm burning those bridges.

2010-08-17T02:02:00.004+08:00

"Don't trust the strangers. Be aware of their every movement."

I've learnt from my mistake. Never trust anyone too early. I let my guard down & there goes people turning tables and trying to mindf*** me. But it's okay. Sorry, but it seem like you dint know that I've got an amazing ability to get back up on feet faster than any. If you're gloating, thinking that you've managed to knock me out using your little tricks to satisfy the despicable you, think again. At the end of the day, you owe all of that all to me. Now you want to burn these bridges, good for you. You want bitch? Hell yeah, Imma give you bitch.

Lastly, get a life. Don't try to feed off mine.

Catch a falling star and put it in your pocket, never let it fade away.

2010-08-03T00:20:00.004+08:00

I'm an absolute sucker when it comes to food. Zero resistance. I've been spending so much money on food, if I could just cut it down by half I think I could have saved quite a bit by now. Oh damn :/

Fold up the dreams into a paper airplane and send it as a letter.

2010-07-28T22:19:00.001+08:00

Do you know what girls want? We want real conversations and real love. We want cute dates together, nothing expensive, the truth is we only want to be with you. We want to hold hands and lie beneath the stars. We want to be able to say something stupid and not worry about it. We want a guy who will love us for nothing but being us plain & simple.

I believe that everyone, at some point, do find a balance in life. The ups and downs seem to have already been incorporated into everyday life, it takes something more dramatic to upset me majorly. I miss you once in awhile, or maybe more often than not. I can't help but think always about how deep down inside we're still kids with mouthfuls of pride. Pride that gets in the way, and how we're losing time being mad at each other. Then again, am I still pissed? I doubt so. I dreamt of you calling and us heading out for lunch just today. I woke up wishing it were true, knowing that if I did something, all would be fine again. Yet at the end of the day, we're just too proud to begin with.

Days like these, I appreciate the solitude that I get and I very much like to be alone at this kind of moments. Some people call this being emo, but I think that once in awhile we all need some alone time. I wish for more days like these.

Human behaviour, sometimes I wished I understood that better. I don't like you blowing hot and cold. It's okay to have other close friends, but most importantly never forget the ones whose lives you tried to enter previously. I'm not one to allow just anyone to be part of my life and share my problems with, so if you do get pass those high walls of mine, please know that it hurts me when you are blowing cold.

I don't know why that up till today I still do dream of you. Was it because there were too many fond memories together that sub-consciously my heart still do not want to let go of? I don't know either but I reckon that some day, someone will surpass all of what we had. Because life will only get better. Some day.

//P.S. Thank you for being there, even when I throw my temper tantrums. From getting all my cravings satisfied to cooking yummy food for me, and walking all over in search of lomo cameras.

2010-07-28T18:13:00.001+08:00

Enjoying some form of solitude today, at last.

I like the way you sound in the morning.

2010-07-24T14:49:00.000+08:00

It seems like life is a lil' too peaceful at the moment, I can't think of what exactly to blog about. There are things that are weighing heavy on my mind, but those aren't things I wish to talk about here. Perhaps not yet. I feel burdened but sometimes, I'm just not that good at expressing the way I feel. Neither am I very good with my words when it comes to the people who matters. Maybe I had built too many walls, all in the name of protecting myself, that you won't know me anymore. Call me selfish, but that's just how I am. Cause I've been through much, those trials made me this way, I can't help it. As strong or intimidating I seem to be, many times I don't know what to do nor how to handle the situations I am in. I think I'm a contradiction, or perhaps I just have split personalities? I don't know either.

Finally heading back to church today after a very very long hiatus. I miss God, I miss the church and I miss W497. I hope all will turn out fine, I pray for God's guidance. I miss His presence.

You take my hand and drag me headfirst; fearless.

2010-07-20T01:14:00.003+08:00

Emotions were like a whirlwind just minutes back but thank God you and other friends made everything feel a whole lot better for me. Thank you. I don't know what to say anymore cause my mind's spinning. I just think that the whole matter is ridiculous. What's the point of having a committee when you make decisions without first consulting us? Sometimes I can't comprehend how the higher up leaders work. It's disappointing and upsetting, I feel unjustified. What exactly had I been working so hard for? What had we been fighting hard for?

On a happier note, I so look forward to today cause imma get many of my cravings satisfied. Oyster mee sua, durian pancake, koi bubble tea, etc! On top of that, imma head to SP to finally do some stunts. All these with A. Awesome day ahead or what?

2010-07-18T21:03:00.002+08:00

Oh. & I miss Daddy :/ He went to Genting yet again.

I'll be here holding you high above it all but don't let me fall.

2010-07-18T20:07:00.004+08:00

Got myself a new toy, the Robot 3 camera. Out a long time ago, but this might be a good start to a lomography collection. I would really love a Hello Kitty polaroid camera or maybe a holga next, any kind soul out there to get it for me? Mhmm, I guess not :/

So the flea at The Arena turned out disappointing for me. Not only was there vomit smell at a certain area (I bet some idiot must have threw up on their velvet sofa the night before.), it was incredibly squeezy. Bought zero clothes, and that makes it seem as though I've got excellent self-control when it comes to shopping. Hell no, I'm a shopaholic. Period.

Yello Jello was a pretty good place to chill at with friends. Besides, they've got awesome chicken wings! Just don't overestimate your tummy and order way too much like how Jiale and I did. We were stuffing the wings into our tummy and by the end of the night we were extremely bloated.

Okay dokes, perhaps I should go make dinner now. Though, I don't think I'm hungry? Well, anything beats having to start on work. F&B presentation speech to do & MICE to read up on. Dang. On a lighter note, Friday was a great day with having Despicable Me, pasta, KOI bubble tea, durian pancake & great company (:

I believe we shouldn't let the moment pass us by.

2010-07-16T02:20:00.002+08:00

A change of blogskin at last. It usually takes me ages to decide on a good enough skin but I fell in love with this at first sight. Made some minor edits like lengthening the widths, so on and so forth, and I was done. I love it being real simple. Kinda amazed that I'm still pretty familiar with the html codes though, I'd have thought that I'd completely be lost.

So the last project submission is finally over, and man did I nearly go bonkers while doing up the appendices yesterday night. It was chaos, but I'm glad it all turned out well. Now, I can feel the effects of my meds kicking in. So imma be heading to bed soonest. Ticketing again later today, there's 49 pages worth of notes just for this lesson. Wth?

A few more assignments and I'll be about done with sem 3.1, cept for the main examinations. I'm so looking forward to the month long study break, there's much to do, many to attain. Alright, as for now, it's bedtime. Zzz.

// p.s. sorry for the temper tantrums and thank you for being there with me to go through one of my busiest and most stressful point in life thus far ((:

I'm just a little girl lost in the moment.

2010-07-11T16:00:00.002+08:00

High tea at Equinox (Y)

I had totally forgot to mention the high tea at Equinox with my group mates. The food was gooood, but the spread wasn't that extensive. They could have more variety, but it was high tea anyway. Oh well. The view up there on the 70th level of Swissotel was fantastic. I'd like to go back there at night, it should be really amazing.

I'm starting to think that I type in a real boring manner now. The side effects of churning out reports daily. I type monotonously now :/ Gees. Anyhow, I'm still trying hard to get used to my new short fringe again. On a side note, I hope I recover from being sick soon-ness. Not that great being sick when there's still a hill (no longer mountain) of work pending.

Alright, this entry is kinda all over the place. I shall get back to my hill of work. Kthxbai.

Acting oblivious comes natural to us.

2010-07-09T15:39:00.000+08:00

Oh wow, you mean it's Friday already? This week seem like it went by in a glance though it is one of the toughest week. A total of two presentations and two tests on top of the usual project workload. I can now finally heave a sigh of relief, just for today. Spending this weekend in school to rush projects again. What a life.

I shan't complain more about it anyway. Projects, though seriously stressful and taxing, had been fun in a way. Thanks to Jamie, Samantha, Jiale, Evelyn and Sindy. Really. Thank God for them. In any way, I should really be jumping over the moon now cause I'd finally gotten my internship placement. Just one day before the e-filing is due, I must be some really lucky kid. But rather than say it was luck, it's God. It really is. He's never early nor too late, always just nice. He heard my cries, praise God. Where God guides, He provides.

//I thought I'd long put it past me, judging by how well I recovered. Then it hit me that I'm not. I'll forever hold a soft spot for you and this can't be changed no matter how I try to fight it. That said, I know that I'll have to keep on keeping on cause the best has yet to come.

On a side note, the wisdom tooth on my right lower jaw seem to be peeking out of my gums recently. It has yet to start hurting, so I pray it'll not. Amen!

2010-06-28T16:28:00.002+08:00

MICE project is finally O-V-E-R! Hallelujah. Oh my goodness, it's like a tonne of burden had just been lifted off my shoulders. And yeah, I've at last fallen sick as well. Cough and migraine :/ I'm actually waiting to see the doctor now. Couldn't at all get up this morning. Not even with two alarms and seventy-seven calls from Yunting. You power luh (Y) Win already. Hahaha. I'm just too worn out. I guess we all are.

Two more projects and one more individual assignment to go apart from the class tests and final examination. Thinking of the coming sleepless nights, spending weekends in school, and doing reports and designing for more than twelve hours a day makes me shudder. It's like a never ending nightmare. A nightmare that I've already gotten used to. Weirdly, I kinda like it. Maybe not the sleepless nights and spending weekends in school but I've to admit that having to churn out reports endlessly makes me feel productive and tells me that I've not gotten that dumb since entering poly. Yeah, I'm weird like that.

It's Monday again; another week of working hard. I pray for God's grace and strength. Nothing is impossible, God can turn your circumstances around even when it seems the least possible. And he did so for me. Praise God ((:

2010-06-27T12:04:00.003+08:00

Hello you. It's a Sunday and guess what?! I AM IN SCHOOL. ZOMGWTHBBQ?! This week has got to be one of the worst weeks. In school for an entire week straight, seven days. 9am till 9, 10, 11pm. Semester 3's projects are a killer, like seriously. But well, tough as it may be, I'm getting used to this routine already. I just crave for more rest cause I'm really all worn out.

Achieved Single Lib with Marcus again (Y) and got my pop twist back though not very sharp, but at least I did it again. But the circumstances at cheer now makes me gloomy. Disappointing. How people can fail you, it's really disheartening. Is this a test from God?

It's 6.04pm at current, I'm still stuck in Business sch with my project mates. Our weekends were completely burnt, I feel depressed. Someone take me out soon please :/

Raindrops and Ribena.

2010-06-23T14:22:00.007+08:00

Hello all. It's actually raining out there and freezing cold in MICE lecture now. Half an hour left and the lecturer is only at page 4 out of 6 of today's notes. I wonder if she'll be able to finish it but she always does somehow. Oh well. I'm so glad I'm done with my MICE project tasks for ytd such that I can move on to another section of the project now. I feel a sense of relief although I'm kinda worried about MICE project since its submission is just next Monday. There's so many deadlines to meet and it's all piling up, it feels like it's tough to breathe normally anymore. But I pray for God's grace to be upon me, and expand my capacity so that I am able to do more.

Just yesterday, I've had horrendous thoughts of dropping out of poly. & I'm amazed that I was actually seriously considering it :/ but I know better than to do that. I've come so far, giving up ain't an option anymore. I realized that I just got to have to press on and take this narrow way. Above all I'm thankful for my groupmates this semester, really.

Everything seems to be caving in, but this is just yet another test. A trial, an obstacle. & I know that my God will never place me in situations which I am not able to handle. So imma emerge victorious. You bet I will.

It's cheer recruitment day today. Am really looking forward to doing stunts again later. I miss cheer much and I miss Euphoria too! Alright enough of my rants for the day. Apel tutorial now. Zzz.

2010-06-19T21:15:00.001+08:00

One down, three more to go! Finally done with F&B. Zomg. What a relief, buttttt DPD individual aint done. Oh goodness. Why is there always a never ending stream of work to do?! I just want to lie around, hang out, shop and party with my friends :/ I know, I've been whining about this since forever. Oh well. Happy Daddy's day in advance. I love you Daddy ♥

We're driving down the road
I wonder if you know
I'm trying so hard not to get caught up now
But you're just so cool, run your hands through your hair
Absentmindedly makin' me want you

There's something about the way the street looks when it's just rained.

2010-06-15T01:20:00.002+08:00

Hello blogsphere. You've been neglected for a long long while, about time I revived you. So... where do I begin anyway? Right, Asia Conference POS. I wouldn't exactly say it was fantastically awesome, but still I'm really proud of Poly/Ite cluster (Y) Thank you all for putting in your utmost efforts into POS 2010. I sure miss trainings now, every Mondays, Wednesdays and Sundays. I miss all the times doing the awesomes, opening stunt, 221, btosses, ticktock, teddy bear, & even the dance. I actually miss every single thing about POS now that it is really over :/ Though I'm really glad we're still keeping the bond, let's not let this fade away. Love you guys deep deep ♥ AHWOO!

Rather than the end of POS, I'd say it's just the beginning. Cheer recruitment next week, & then off we go again. We start all over again (Y) I like. Well, besides being busy with cheer trainings, cheer appreciation, cheer cluster shirts and ministry meetings, I've been bombarded with projects as well. But well, I guess that's just the life of a year 3. Though I really think I need a breather, or if time could stop? (Okay, enough with talking about the impossibility)

Anyhow, look here for some picture updates of outing with Joy & Yunting -> CLICK!
Liz & Michelle had to leave earlier though. Outing soon again girls ^^

Life is full of ups and downs, & unfortunately, I've hit another down again :/

Hey everyone in the hall, listen up!
Army of God we'll wage the war
We care & love with all our hearts
Salt & light for Jesus Christ
Making every second every moment count
P-O-L-Y-I-T-E
We'll fight & storm the world, EMERGE!
Passion, fire & with zeal
Raise a generation in the call of God
Storming in Asia with youth & all
To bring revival all throughout!

ASIA CONFERENCE 2010 POS!

2010-05-28T03:17:00.002+08:00

The big day is finally here. I will cheer, dance & fly with all my heart. All stunts up, we're going to rock the halls. All glory to God, we will shine! Poly/Ite, AH-WOO!!! ♥

2010-05-25T11:05:00.002+08:00

Am just about an inch away from throwing in the towel & calling it quits.
Fatigued; I'm completely worn out. I need time to stop, just stop.

No pain no gain.

2010-05-20T03:30:00.002+08:00

Poly/Ite Cluster 2010 ♥

By now, I've fully understood this fateful phrase 'no pain no gain'. Crashing on my head is sure painful, countless times. What makes it worst are the headaches that surfaces after awhile. I've sprained a nerve on my right hand and it's slightly swollen. There are bruises on both my shin, some even a lil' swollen as well. On top of that, getting punched in the face and bad landings seem to have become a norm. I think my body is crumbling bit by bit. Like how I've just fallen sick, and am actually very drowsy cause of the cough medicine prescribed.

POS trainings are coming to an end, & we're drawing nearer and nearer to the big day as every second pass by. As of now, I'm really being pushed to my limits and my body is wearing out. But I guess it's as much for every one of us. Being a poly year 3 sure ain't no easy feat. What's more is having cheer thrice a week, ending superbly late each time. This week trainings has increased including Thursday and Friday. I really pray hard that my fatigued body wouldn't give up on me just yet. So many things to do, yet so lil' time. If only time could standstill for a little while and just let me breathe.

On a happier note, I really look forward to every single training. I'm sure going to miss each and every one after AC is over. I hope the bonds will stay though. From Sec-JC cluster, Uni cluster and to my very own Poly/ITE cluster, we're just like one big family. Hang in there and let us all work hard to put up a good show for the glory of God, prize money aside.

For now, Imma crash. Cough medicine is taking over me. Goodnight. XOXO, G.

2010-05-10T02:02:00.006+08:00

Happy Mother's Day
&

Happy awesome

fifty-fifth birthday
Mummy!!!
I ♥ you.

2010-05-08T23:13:00.000+08:00

Sometimes solitude is therapy.

Parade of Schools.

2010-05-07T23:17:00.003+08:00

I bought another jacket today, adding on to my mini-jackets collection. A lil' guilty, but well, it only cost 10bucks okay. What's more, it's military style aye. Justified right? Yes. I love Bugis Street much. Also not forgetting the ever awesome Forever 21. Hahaha. However, what's important was that I completed what was on my agenda today, & that was to get Mummy's Mother's day & birthday present (Y) Restaurant's booked for dinner with the mother, brother and sister-in-law on Sunday. We're having seafoooooooood! Yumsss.

The only downside is that I won't be able to go to SP on Sunday to try out my latest set of cheer uniform so that the tailor can make changes if any. Which also mean that I won't get to see my Poly/Ite cluster, & many others! & will also not be able to practice some partner stunts :/ I'm going to miss them much. But thank goodness there's training on Monday :D

School's been really stressful & I'm almost all worn out. Training thrice a week, 4/5 days of 9am tutorials, tight schedules & deadlines are sure no easy feat. I thank God for pulling me through week 3. It's mad hectic. I'm fatigued. The coming weeks... I can only imagine.

P.S. I never had the intention of creating a blogwar. I just dint like you assuming that I was writing about you to gain pity or whatsoever. Because I knew that writing about whatever was happening between us was not going to help. Because I knew that it was only going to make you angrier. Likewise, I thought you were the one person who knew me best, cause we grew up together. Yes, we fought much, but also because of that, we understood each other better. How similar yet different we are. I love everything about us. But I just don't like it when you assume things about me, since a long time ago. Cause most of the times, I'm not what you assumed I am. But I choose to keep mum about it because that's the way it's been since we were young. Maybe cause I feared you, not in the bad way, but because I looked up to you as a big sister.

I'm thankful for the family you gave me, cause as you know, mine's really not much of one. But saying that I was making use of you, & that your parents thought so too. That really broke me. Cause I can't figure out why. I may not be the best sister around, I may not give you the best advice nor comfort when you needed it, but I tried my best. It's not easy. Up till today, I still don't know/get why we fell out. I really don't.

I kept believing that whatever was happening was only temporary as well, I told myself that everyday. Cause that's how I kept myself functioning. Up till your second call to screw me up again. I was in the midst of a meeting, & I had to sit back in after you hung up on me again, acting like I was fine. Honestly, you should know, I'm not as strong as I look to be. It was tough, but I thought if you could cut me out just like that, then I can as well. & likewise again, it only means I'm hurting as much as you do.

I just badly wanted my life to be normal again. The period after the breakup, I doubt you realised, that I was hurting as well. It doesn't mean that if I don't show it, I am perfectly fine. But you guys were just too worn out dealing with him, I dint want to add on. & you thought I went there just to bump into him? What for? It wasn't my night, it wasn't for me to decide on the venue. But yes, it was my fault to still have gone even though I knew he was going to be there. Call me self-centered, but I just wanted to focus on myself & get myself up again. Partying may not be the best way, but then, I only knew of how to run away & numb myself of all else.

I stuck by all these years, though some times frustrated with your mood swings, because I knew it was only with me. & yes, of course you've put up with mine as well. I don't say much of how I feel, I don't show what's wrong with me because that's the way I was brought up. I don't like to affect people when I'm upset. I think you know that. So maybe sometimes, you feel that I shut you out of my life. Perhaps that's why now I'm nothing but a stranger. I've never gotten over this fight. I merely fought to think of it lesser.

Once and for all.

2010-04-29T03:00:00.006+08:00

If you're thinking my blogpost was referring to you, & that you're so annoyed by the fact that I am blogging about you, well you can stop now cause it's not at all about you. Not one part. Not for 1 second did you cross my mind when I was writing that. In fact, none of my blogposts were about you ever since stuff happened. Well, except this. I don't have the extra time now to be brooding over what happened 3 months ago. Cause believe it or not, I, like you, get back up on feet way faster than whoever took me down with him. & in case you're still wondering, no, you're not the 'K' I'm missing on my twitter.

So seriously, you can stop misunderstanding me and assuming things like how you always do. Cause 75% of the time, you think too much.

2010-04-28T01:50:00.005+08:00

First attempt at Btoss Pretty Lady - Full

Test-run without hand actions for Btoss Pretty Lady

FOCUS.

GOODBYE LONG HAIR :/

2010-04-25T03:28:00.005+08:00

Zomg. I miss my long hair I tell you. It's now so short to me, but friends are telling me that there's no difference. How can that be?! There was a mountain of hair on the floor when the haircut was finally done please. Boo. But anyhow, I'm still okay with my hair. Just that I now prefer to tie it up cause the ends are a lil' too thinned. All for the sake of having healthy hair! Hahaha.

Anyway, HAPPY TWENTIETH BIRTHDAY GOH YOU ELDORA! Please have an awesome day, & we shall meet soon for some shopping, dessert, chilling, l4d2 and karaoke. I love you to bits and pieces ♥ 11 years and countin', bff! :D

& also, Happy 1st year Wedding Anniversary to my brother and sister-in-law! :DDD

School, school, school again on Monday. Tutorials starts this coming week & it starts from 9am, Mondays to Fridays. Oh God. I really have to start sleeping early in order to wake up early. It's hitting 4am & I should be crashing soon. Ikea Tampines with Dennis, Seema and Charmaine later before cheer prac. I can't wait to get my hands on the meatballzzz! Salivating already. Hong Kong Cafe-ed with Dennis, Charmaine, Seema and Muru just now and I was bright like a lamp post amidst the two couples :/ Oh well, at least I had my fill of dessert and some supper. Called E, and made both Dennis & Seema sing the birthday song over the phone for her (Y) & now, I'm regretting that I left HK Cafe without having my spring roll ):

Before I forget, I ACHIEVED MY FIRST SINGLE LIBERTY last Wednesday at training! Mad happy much! All thanks to Chen Cheng and Marcus (Y) You guys are zee awesome. Hahaha. I look forward to learning and achieving more at today's training.

Sometimes, you really can't stop what people have to say of you. You can't prevent if tongues wag. What you can do, is simply to ignore. As long as you know that you have friends that you can trust anything with. Friends that are there come rain or shine, friends that would back you up, friends that believes in you. That's enough. & with that, I'm one lucky girl, cause I do have a bunch of these such precious people in my life ((:

Don't curse it, nurse it, nor rehearse it.
Disperse it & God will reverse it!
My God is GREATER.

2010-04-19T18:19:00.003+08:00

Semester 3.1 is going to start officially for me tomorrow & here I am coughing and sneezing away with a slight fever. Even sleeping is tough, cause of the non-stop coughing hits that I get, it's so bad that each time I cough, I barf :/ I guess I've pushed my body to its limits again by attending cheer practice yesterday even with flu, fever and cough. So today, I've decided to cut my exhausted body some slack & stay home to recuperate. Missing Euphoria & POS mates much though.

Enough of whining about being sick, tomorrow's back to TP for school. Somehow I still prefer to train to Sentosa for school instead of having to take 2 buses to get to TP. With regards to starting semester 3.1, I'm excited yet upset by the fact that school is back. Excited cause I'm finally on my last year of my diploma, excited cause both Jme and Sam are in 03 with me, excited cause I'll be able to see Chels almost daily again, excited cause of having POS mates in TP too... & well, upset of course that holidays has yet again ended. It felt like a really long break though, & a much needed one.

I have this bad tendency to rehearse bad memories in my head again and again, just like how happy memories are on repeat mode in my head as well. But this week at church, I've got reminded again that I shouldn't be rehearsing unhappy thoughts/memories/scenes. It's always better to let go and let God. Yes, most of the time it ain't easy to simply just let things go. But why not, when I have God to fight for me when I let things go? He is my number one knight, He is my battle warrior.

God of my forever, & forever I'm with You.

2010-04-14T00:43:00.000+08:00

Buddy, you seriously crack me up (Y)

PISS ME OFF.

2010-04-12T04:49:00.004+08:00

Stop freaking assuming things when you haven't got your facts right. Stop thinking you know all about me. Stop making comments as if you know my story. Stop, just bloody STOP.

2010-04-09T06:05:00.004+08:00

Good morning. I've been tossing around in bed for almost an hour & yet I still can't seem to drift off to dreamland, so here I am. Thought perhaps I should take some time to update this space & then try to sleep again. Well, Seema just dropped me back home at 4plus just now after hanging around with her, Dennis and his girlf. & I finally satisfied my craving for McDonald's Double Cheese burger and Cinnamon Melts, awesome stuff (Y)

Life's been pretty busy lately. Cheerleading practice thrice a week now, & I'm not complaining, I actually like it like that. It definitely is more tiring, & I get more bruises as the weeks go by and as we move on to higher level stunts. But I'm really loving the challenges, hype, excitement, as well as learning many more new stuff. In a way, it's more fulfilling now. I love the people there as well. All my Euphoria mates, as well as new friends made from this year's Parade of Schools (POS). I'm very sure we'd be putting up a great show! I just hope I'd be able to cope well once semester 3.1 kicks off on the 19th of this month. It sure ain't gonna be easy, but I know He will provide me with the strength and expand my capacity. Also, it's about time I run back to Him. I keep trying to lean on myself, & meanwhile, I drift further away. Explains the random loneliness and emptiness I feel. But He is always faithful, I trust in the hand of God.

Anyhow, I apologise for the lack of pictures. My old canon died totally, and am still searching for a new camera to get. Am thinking of another Ixus but I'll just keep my options open for now. Mummy has given the green lights for it, so I think it won't be too long before I'll have a massive overload of pictures again (Y)

Y'know, it's funny how certain people can just enter and exit your life so easily sometimes. & some that you wished had never entered, just can't seem to leave even if you wanted him/her to. It's strange how you know that it was never meant to be, but yet you just want to savour the moment of happiness that you are feeling. It's stupid how you let someone be a part of your life when you know that he can't be there till forever. It's ridiculous that for awhile you thought that you could settle with second best when you know you deserve nothing less than the best. It's frustrating how he can stay on your mind for a pretty long while & a mystery how the next moment you can't even remember the very eyes that you used to stare into. When you realize that the familiar face that pops up more than often starts becoming a blurry image, when the voice that made you laugh all the time starts fading away. When sweet nothings starts becoming stagnant conversations. Say maybe, what we had has come and gone? It's a pity though, I thought we might have been great. But just so you know, I smile all the time when I think about you.

Love is hard, and life is strange.

PEEKTURES ((:

2010-04-05T16:24:00.004+08:00

IG Handover Camp

Mahjong mahjong.
Jme finally learnt to play :D

I can't help but miss htmig already.
Like what the advisors said, once an ig, always an ig.
Buttt, I'm still happy now that the maincomms have stepped down :D

Good Friday with lovelies

Awesome lunch at the Heeren's Pasta de Waraku.

Candid. When Jme's camera dropped to the floor!

Sexyback. Lol.

My favourite alien.

Shopping again at Forever21.

Post-Easter service dinner @ Imperial Treasure

Yet another candid (Y)

Cough & flu still not getting any better, about time I should see a doctor I guess. Anyhow, I passed my management accounting :D Awesome. Now, I just can't wait for the class postings to be out. & I really pray that I'll have Jme, Chels or Adel in my class, pretty please. Two more weeks of holidays left, I must spend it wisely.

Things I need to get done before sem 3.1 starts:
1. Replace IC
2. Tidy up my two messy rooms
3. Get new stuff for school
4. Meet ups with friends

That's all I can think for now. & yes, no.3 is just another excuse to shop :D Looked through my transaction history just now and realised that I've been spending much at 313's Forever21. That place's a killer I tell you, can never walk out empty handed. Gees. Aight, off to get ready for cheer.

Don't settle for anything less than the best.

HAPPY APRIL'S FOOL!

2010-04-01T05:13:00.004+08:00

So I've finally got my fringe-cut while out with Adel on Monday. & I seriously admire Adel's boldness to just snip off her long locks without even having to think twice. Whereas for myself, I've been thinking since forever whether or not to chop my locks to mid-chest length. Hah. Still in the midst of considering, oh gees. & I've been coughing since forever as well. Been coughing myself awake the past few days after barely sleeping for even 3 hours, and flu and chills kicked in yesterday. Had to miss ig agm to rest in more. Went for cheer still however, since I felt better after a long rest.

Cheer prac was fulfilling cause Dennis and I managed to do a partner stunt that we saw from a video on youtube. Awesomeness. Could still do with improvements, gonna keep practicing till we fully get it (Y) Am pretty much exhausted from training three times a week now, but it's definitely getting more exciting :D More injuries too, I'm now covered in yoko yoko all over as I am composing this post in fact. Hah. Okay, I could do with some rest. Gymming later today! & I seriously ought to go and see a doctor, getting sicker by the day. kthxbye!

Fugly bruise on my right arm )):

It's not just a sport, it's a passion.

2010-03-28T04:36:00.004+08:00

Once you lose yourself,
you have two choices.
Find the person you used
to be, or lose that person
completely and create a
new one.

- HG Wells

2010-03-26T18:47:00.000+08:00

2010-03-21T15:18:00.001+08:00

Cause we all need a lil' more than a lil' bit.

Off to meet Lynn before cheer practice <3

2010-03-21T06:03:00.002+08:00

could you?

2010-03-18T16:52:00.002+08:00

It doesn't matter when sometimes you can't comprehend the thoughts and actions of your friends, all you got to do really, is just to let know that you're there. Always. - G

& this is what gives me the strength to take on the risks that comes my way. Cause I know, they've got my back. I'm not afraid of falling.

I believe in a place called Wonderland.

2010-03-16T18:50:00.011+08:00

"I want someone who won't care that I tend to think a lot and that would drive him nuts, that I'm incapable of controlling my mood swings that come my way, that I can't grasp the concept of 'I love you that's why I'm letting you go', and I refuse to give in all the time. I want someone who realizes that half the decisions I make are usually ones that I regret, but at the end of the day, I just hope he would be there for me. I want someone who knows I'm completely insane, but wouldn't want me any other way."

BFFs; I love you both!

Image heavy.
I've not done a pictorial update for long, so here goes.
In anyway, check out my tumblr if you want more frequent updates.
Mostly all reblogs though, but it posts what I like and feel on a daily basis (:

Rest of the pictures are up on FB (:

So I lost my phone last Friday while out partying to celebrate my twentieth. Tough luck. First my River Island wallet, then now my Samsung Corby which is only 3 to 4 months old. But oh well, instead of lamenting, I'll just take it in my stride. Youth Conference yesterday was awesome. I need a revival, a new start, a new anointing. The pressure's really on now though, after hearing pastor say that he wants Parade of Schools to be ever greater this year. With so many clusters to coach, it's going to be a test of our limits, strength and patience. But I believe that we can do it (:

Management accounting paper would be on this coming Friday, and man am I nervous. Panicking, to be exact. But, I can do it. Yes? Am finally taking a break from all the partying, the past 1 to 2 months has been crazy. Thinking back, I honestly don't recall most of it. Of course I wasn't happy and I hated that I lost the cheerfulness in me. Too much had been happening, emotional turmoils. Therefore I'm really thankful for my ever wonderful BFFs who stayed by me, and pulled me back up. & to the ones who popped up along the way just to make my day, to see a smile. Words of encouragement, I'll keep 'em and remember by heart. You know I'll always stand back up. & though I may change here and there along the way, G will always be G.

To Chels, I can never thank you enough. Words are an understatement, but you have been one of my biggest supports. Sometimes, it's like we go through very similar situations but yet we lead very different lives. & I love you for that. I hope I've been a good enough sister to you just like you are to me. Anyhow, I love you very much.

Dennis Tan, you're like my SOS hot line. I adore our friendship very much though ppl keep thinking that we're an item. Words here, would be an understatement too but still, thank you very very much. I'll love you even though we annoy each other, and even if you always hit me with reality. But remember, dreams are what keeps me alive. Don't worry though, I'll always remember to come back down to Mother Earth, it's just a matter of time.

E, cheers to all the shit we've been through and to eleven years of friendship thus far. Knowing someone for years is easy, but to bear with each other, be there for each other, to listen, hear, share problems, to give and love unconditionally is no easy feat. Thank you for being there. & you know I'll always be there too, & I love you.

To W, you deserve credit for being an awesome buddy. Though just barely 3 weeks, it feels as though I've known you for a damn pretty long while. Thanks for B&Js and L4D2 on my birthday, very much appreciated. I hope we'll both stay happy (Y)

A dream is a wish your heart makes.

-- Cinderella

You mean a lil' more
than a lil' bit to me;
G.

2010-03-12T17:30:00.001+08:00

2010-03-08T18:27:00.001+08:00

How very true.

New Beginning.

2010-03-07T07:18:00.001+08:00

Lord I give You my heart,
I give You my soul.
I live for You alone.
Every breath that I take,
every moment I'm awake,
Lord have Your way in me.

2010-03-05T05:20:00.004+08:00

"Because sometimes people do actually feel that way. Sometimes your life feels like it's caving in on you. Sometimes people really do feel like they don't want to exist, like they just want to curl up in a ball, and go into that place between life and death. Saying "I don't want to exist" isn't saying "I want to die". It's saying "I wish that, for the time being, I could go somewhere and not have to feel". I don't think there's anything wrong with that. And if you don't know how it feels to feel this way, then you have no place to judge anyone who does."

xoxo,
G.

2010-03-02T06:55:00.001+08:00

"I want someone who won't care that I hate wearing shoes, that I'm incapable of sitting still, that I can't grasp the concept of cleaning, and I refuse to be ladylike. Someone who realizes that half the decisions I make are usually ones that I regret, and I have the right to overreact at any given moment. I want someone who knows I'm completely insane, but wouldn't want me any other way."

2010-02-28T04:20:00.001+08:00

"Me, I'm scared to fall in love, I'm scared of who I've become, what I'm feeling, what I've been thinking about, but most of all I am scared to feel that hurt I felt, when the one you love walks away and they never glanced back." - satyo

& I WONDER IF I EVER CROSS YOUR MIND?

2010-02-25T01:19:00.004+08:00

CRS paper in about another eight hours' time, but I can't seem to pick up my notes at all. This is definitely not the season for exams for me. Emotions, I'd say. Sometimes they get too overwhelming. Sure, I may seem cold and nonchalant, but honey, I ain't bulletproof. And times like these is when I start to dislike myself because I know I could do better and be stronger. Yet sometimes I just want to be embraced and sit in silence; as though you completely understand my thoughts and emotions. Cause maybe that's the best comfort I'll need.

Tonight imma fight
till I see the sunlight;
G.

2010-02-20T20:45:00.002+08:00

Am currently sitting at T3's Coffee Club, on Chelsie's laptop, FB-ing and tweeting away. Well, the initial plan is to go back to studying when Chels is back from sending her friend off at idk which gate, but about half hour or more has gone by and she ain't back yet. So... maybe I should resume the mugging after this post, hopefully?

Oh God, I'm like all sleepy shit now. & I can't help but still be pissed at that cab uncle this afternoon. Bloody took one big detour to get to Hougang Mall. He must have known that there was a jam, and then purposely took that route. Cost me $7 just to get there on a normal day without extra charges. Daylight robbery. Nehneh.

Okay dokes, Chels is finally backkk. Accounting accounting accounting. Kbye!

Debitcreditdebitcredit;
G.

2010-02-18T18:45:00.002+08:00

"No girl should ever forget that she doesn't need anyone who doesn't need her." - Marilyn Monroe