Life is a maze

Monday, June 19, 2006

♥ DADDY'S DAY

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO ALL DADDYS
yes i know i'm 3.25hours late here on my blog.

* an apple a day keeps the doctor away;
says who?

* here you see my cousin forcing that
dragofruit down my honey's mouth.

* weird huh? think someone tried drilling it.

* my tutor hates ichigo now cause of c&k.
nonetheless, it's DELICIOUS :P

-18 june, sunday-

pretty much done nothing today.
stayed home for the day to accompany
daddy. it's father's day.

yieling and estelle came by just now.
how sweet of them! (:
thank you both!

watched world cup with dad and cousin just now.
Japan Vs Croatia. is this how you spell croatia?
the japan's goalkeeper looks like some handsome
japanese actor. lols. like his name though,
kawaguchi. seems to me like TAMAGOCHI.
hehehehe. okay, the match turned out to be a...
disappointment? first time i was willing to
watch a soccer match, and... DRAW. wth.

nvm nvm. BRAZIL vs Aussie. woooohooo~~~
BRAZIL scored the first goal. yayness.
but i had only watched til halftime. and the goal
was after halftime. however i managed to see
that goal anyway. thing is, i dunno who won?
oops*

it's currently France Vs Korea now. eh...
i shall support France this time. since pru
likes them. did you bet this round?

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things at home aint on the sunny side now.
seems like everyone's facing a tough time now.
somehow, i'm living in fear at home.
thank goodness my cousin's still here,
but what would i face when my cousin finally
returns home today?
she did silly stuff again. and made it seem as
though everything was my fault. kelvin, my
step-brother says that she just want all the
sympathy. dad says she just wants attention.
whatever it is. i wanted to run to someone
elses house to take cover, then again, how long
can i run away from this? i'd prefer to face
reality. but i'm still afraid of her.
i've gotten things flung at, hit my arm, doesnt
really hurt much tho. she even threw a flask
of hot water to the floor, in june's and my
direction, scalding us lightly. i wont say the
extreme that she did. somehow i just felt
scared, no pain lookin' at what she was doing.
perhaps i'm all too used with all these alr.
it had once been my childhood. little did i
know that it'll return to haunt me again.
well, i dont see why i should apologise, it
clearly wasnt me. not that i'm trying to push
the blame. i've told daddy and kelvin what
happened, none of them reprimanded me.
they all know her too well already. all those
stupid and unreasonable stuff she'd do to make
one take all the blame upon himself, thinking
that she's always right. i remember that night
we argued. how she slapped me countless times.
my dad have never lifted a finger on my face
although he said he would. never. and she...
whatever, kinda know she would do that
anyway. last night when she did silly stuff,
june and i locked ourselves in the room.
shaking all over, daddy was aslp, he had
enough anyways, i guessed he's immuned too,
like kelvin, we leant against the door, afraid
that she might be able to barge in any moment.
thank god i kept my room key, or else she'd
be able to unlock my room. she knocked and
called for me. who would dare answer or
even open the door? it was in the wee hours
of the morning. i had the feelin' she was drunk
again as well, maybe not drunk but definitely
under the influence of alcohol. i prayed to God,
asking for help. he did protect my cousin and i.
for this i am forever grateful to Him. for he's
always there, i know He is. june and i had
wanted to slp at the door, lying there, none of
could get to slp. finally after 1-1and a half hours
of sitting against and lying at the door, we
climbed into bed. i guess it was about 5am?
there was someone in the living room watchin'
tv, we dint dare to check who was it.
listening intently, at 5plus the person finally
switched off the tv and lights and went back
to the room. we thought it was her. turned out
to be dad though. i guess i was in fear and
shock. i couldnt even get to slp, for quite long,
my eyes refused to close. i was staring in
the darkness of my room. only able to make
out silhouettes. it was probably until 6plus that
i finally dose off. i kept waking up anyway.
heard her going out to work rnd 8am?
i am tired now. any moment she would be back.
i can only pray. i know my Lord's there no
matter what. well, signing off now. pray for
me will you?
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[ ] the dark
[ ] staying single
[ ] getting married
[ ] being a parent
[ ] giving birth
[ ] being myself in front of others
[ ] open spaces
[x] closed spaces
[ ] heights
[ ] cats
[ ] dogs
[ ] birds
[x] spiders and/or other insects
[ ] driving or being in cars
[ ] flying
[ ] being put to sleep (anesthesia)
[ ] flowers or other plants
[ ] being touched
[ ] fire
[ ] water
[x] the ocean
[ ] pools
[ ] failure
[ ] success
[ ] germs
[ ]thunder/lightning
[x] frogs/toads
[ ]mice/rats
[ ] jumping from high places
[ ] snow
[ ] rain
[ ] wind
[ ] cemeteries
[x] clowns
[ ] large crowds
[ ] demons or evil
[ ] crossing bridges
[ ] death
[ ] Hell
[ ] Heaven
[ ] being robbed
[x] being sexually assaulted
[ ] men( THEY SUCK)
[ ] women
[ ] having great responsibility
[ ] doctors, including dentists
[ ] tornadoes
[ ] hurricanes
[ ] being punished
[x] diseases, including cancer and STD's
[x] snakes
[ ] sharks
[ ]dinosaurs
[ ] Friday the 13th
[ ] poverty
[ ]ghosts
[ ] Halloween
[ ] school
[ ] trains or railroads
[x] fear
[ ]being alone
[x] losing loved ones and frens
[x]being blind to things
[x]being deaf
[ ]growing up
[x]being murdered in my sleep

i fear 13 outta 66.

* youandme version6

-using a slogan generator for my quote of the day-

` ALWAYS AFTER ME KENNY.

unraveled @ 3:25 AM