Life is a maze

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

♥ BIG FAT FUGLY ARROGANT PRICK; SUBA

to subathra:

i got tired of tagging and tagging gaya's
blog, so here's a note to you.
i must first make it clear that i am not in
any way scolding you or what. i just hope
you'd understand and clear all these
"problems" among us alright.

okay. so i know you aint being happy these
few days. i seriously dont see where does
the problem lie with. it just seems so...
childish. that all these is happening.
it's not like we told gaya and renu to stop
being frens with you. never had we.
and today, during pe, i overheard what you
said to gaya and renu while we were climbing
the stairs. you said that pru and i are making
use of both gaya and renuka to get ourselves
popular. it kinda made me laugh, kind of an
absurd comment. hello?! why would we
make use of gaya and renu to get popular?!
in the first place, we are all popular in our
own ways. just because you're not, doesnt
mean we arent. plus dont you think that
after 4years of being in council and being
an executive committee member in council
had already exposed me to countless events
that made me known by others? i'm not trying
to be egoistic here. do you not think that i've my
own bunch of sec4 frens that's enough to be known
by others? i am in some way what you call
"popular". pru's pretty and she, like me, has a
pretty wide range of connection in school.
and dont you think that even if we really did wanna
MAKE USE of someone to get popular, we'd
approached some other more "popular" ppl?
not saying that gaya and renu are not "popular"
enough but seriously, are you making any sense?!

it's not like we only say "gaya pang seh" when she
talks to you. we do it when she talks to renu too.
it was MEANT AS A JOKE. cant you tell?! omg.
o-kay, true that we might sometimes roll our
eyes when you talk or sth but wassup man?
in case you dint know, we do that quite often,
to anyone, and often it's just a joke.
i cant see what's the big deal you're trying to
make. what makes you think i'd make use of
gaya anyway, we've been classmates/friends
since secondary1. she's one of the closest friend
i have now. so why would i?

and i do agree with gaya that you are being too
sensitive. why do you keep bothering whether
ppl like you or not, and then because we dont,
you decide to "leave" gaya and renu... like???
there's more than us who sorta dislikes you in
the class too, are you gonna isolate yourself
from each and everyone or what? it's not as
though everybody loves us either. you said it,
you wanna live for yourself so why let others
comments and dislikes drift you apart from your
good friends who care for you? yes perhaps that
sometimes you should reflect on what others say
and if you think that that's a flaw in you, try to
change for the better. that's how life should
be aint it? please, gaya and renuka are trying
hard to please both sides already, sometimes
not only pru and i cant tolerate your arrogance,
blah, blah and blah, even gaya and renuka cant
too. and sorry to say, i dont agree that during
english, why i can write out the groupwork's
because you read to me therefore i'm just writing
down your work. i remember that time clearly
where we had to grade the compositions of the
different groups, first was you telling me to go
and write on the board the score that we had
came up with, and then even when we had to
calculate the average of our score, you simply
just went "nah, you calculate." and passed me
the calculator. in case you dint know, i was the
leader of our group, miss suan dint make me the
leader for nothing you know, i should've been
the one who delegates the work. and before
that when we had to come up with the composition
as a group, marcus was too interested with steve
and leslie to bother about the compo, and you,
doing nothing at all okay. i came up with the whole
compo myself and was so furious. where's the
contribution? the only thing you did then was
to type my written composition out and send
it to me. omgosh and you daresay i write only
because you contribute, even saying that you
were the most involved one. please, dont make
me hurl. so for heaven's sake, or in this case,
gaya and renuka's sake, stop. stop all this
nonsensical stuff, trying to gain sympathy.
and it doesnt help by crying either, you just
make yourself unapproachable. we dont have
a problem talking to you. just that we dont have
much to talk to you, and you seem not wanting
to talk to us anyway. yeah. i guess this had
cleared the air as much.
at the end of the day, we're still classmates,
we're still friends.

and whatever i am saying here, i have the rights
to. simply because it's my blog alright.
if you wanna think that i am being mean and
bitchy or whatsoever, suit you, whatever makes
you happy man. i've said and am saying before
that i am just wanting to clear this childish dispute.
it's already our last year, could you not hurt
those eg. gaya and renuka who cares for you.
you are hurting gaya big time. did you know she
is crying because of you?! her life has
been tough enough, stop adding to it.
if you still wanna remain like that, then stop
bugging them alright. everytime you isolate
yourself or drift away, they both get upset
and feel bad. i dont think they need to,
because they had already done what a good
friend should and each time you're just creating
more and more storms in a teacup.
come on lar, be more matured.

unraveled @ 5:21 PM