alright, am just back from talking to jude and having
my supper. it's currently 4.25am now.
and i've gotta like meet carmen and kamy at 1pm,
orchard. bahh. someone wake me up will you?

suddenly, alot of stuff dawned on me today.
perhaps my Lord spoke to me? as so said by estelle
that God must have been speaking to me through bible
study today and cell group meeting's sermon. since
both issues were the same, God must have been trying to
tell me sth yeah? i believe so.

you know buddies, sometime through cellgrp meeting,
my Lord asked me, whether was i going to cell group
meetings and church services this and that other religious
stuff because of seeking Him, or was i just, as yieling said,
fulfilling my christian duties? i began to question myself.
and then it hit me. going to church, had been like a routine
for me. i'm a christian, i should go to church. i think, that
was the mentality. however, that's not what i really want.
i realised that life has pretty much been meaningless that
i just go to cellgrp and services on fridays and saturdays.
then what about the rest of the week?
it's not this type of relationship that i want with my Lord.
i began to understand and know that my purpose is to seek
You. what i'm doing aint enough. i may seem like a holy girl,
going to church, bible studies, cellgrps and all. but what will
i benefit from these if i do not have a close relationship with
You? it's You, Lord, that i thank for speaking to me today.
upon realising my folly, life has yet another meaning to it :DD

forgive me God, that i've not given You the glory for what
You have done for me during my Os.
those papers that You've blessed me through.
everyday that You're with me. keeping those knowledge
that i needed in my brain for it to flow out during the papers.
and that all those that i studied, with Your grace, God,
it all came out. the many lil' things that you've been blessing
me with. i thank you God, so so much.

i've been blessed. i'm gay and ecstatic.
things are much more clearer and i now know what i want
to achieve with God. it's always through His grace ((:
when i give to the Lord, no matter how broke i may be,
He'd always bless me folds more than what i've given to
Him. there isnt anything that would be in lacking when
i've Him, for there is always abundance in His kingdom.
God's goodness is amazing i tell you! He's a great big
daddy God! mwahhs. and i LOVE HIM!

dear readers Gwen's becoming more holy. hahas :P
tralala` got an ipod sock today :D
ahhh, shin goon!
eyecandy:


-melts


-melts further.

"everyday i draw closer to you Lord
i long to see your face and hide in your embrace
all my life, dwelling in your holy place
my heart o'Lord you've changed
i'll never be the same."

Jesus Christ died for our sins.
He was buried.
and He rose again on the third day.

unraveled @ 2:43 AM